HELLY&CO

I had some troubles but they’ll left.Sugar town helps a lot.

yaya,sometimes it’s really not easy 2 stop our own laziness comin’ from the deepest part of our existance. I donno whatchu wanna think ‘bout ir but I actually realize that’s not good. I don understand persons who thought they’r fuckin’ cool and rich -but this;s just bcuz if their wealthy parents. These teenagers didnt reach smth yet. but nevertheless they cinsider themselves favourite and clever,and they suppose they’re always right. It irritates a little bit. I know I ought  2 save calmness and I always try 2 do it and hope 2 make less attention 2 this miserible facts.

Watchin’ movie-“Chloe”

U thought sae was a virgin but u were mistaken,honey. Nevertheless at that moment it wasn’t very important 4 u. May b this made a spurrin’ inside u 2 have a rough sex. 

/When she left u alone-only ashes stayed in ur re-burnt heart./

But now we r speakin ‘bout ur happy momemts. U were ready 2 render 2 herself everythin’ she was dreamin’ of. She knew u were really reputable and she used u like a needful thing 4 herself. B4 ur common appionment she had a little sketch of urs relations. She felt u were a natural but unique fool. That why she chose u.

/don’t cry 4 pain.be strong.The time erase./

U were ready 2 submit 2 herself cuz U were afraid 2 lost her. u had this fear in the deepest corner of ur blind soul.

Many months ago I thought about that country. I supposed 2 have a little trip there. But once my mom said-U must have only one choice. U can’t catch 2 hares at 1 moment. Firstly I thought she wasn’t right but now..I understand she was.

About that country-I’ll let this variant 2 b like a 2-nd.but not the 1-st.

Have u ever been wounded by someone?Guess I’ve been. Suppose everybody’s been. But then u could feel  a long presence of that previous problem and a little fear on ur skin. U know what I’m speakin’ ‘bout. Relationships.When u love someone u wanna take ur entire energy 2 that person. May b it’s fabulous. But have u ever thought-is that person actually right 4 u? I know, at the teasin’ time he or she can really b very curvy 4 u. U can start thinkin’ -Wow,she was really intended specially 4 me!. But may b she was just a fuckin’ lure,enticin’ ur soul and mind? Probabably u couldn’t answer at that moment cuz u were in deep feeling wit herself.. ok I can understand ya. When u saw her stripped u couldn’t hold ur passion in urself 4 a long time. She was like a delicious cupcake 4 u and u wanted 2 eat her as soon as possible^^ Quick as a cat can wink an eye. U wanted 2 have a real grip of herself 4 ages. Her hips made u gone mad. It wasn’t secure but u wanted 2 fuck her every time&everywhere. wherever u were. I bet u looked 2 make her ur wife in nearest future. There weren’t any devices in the whole world that could make u stop thinkin’ of her. 

2day my parents arrived 2 me again. May b I’m used 2 live alone but nevertheless I’m very queit ‘nout it. Now I wanna do my arch project and ended it.Then I wuold like 2 sprache Deutsch und lerne die Texte^^

So,bye 4 now but hope 2 return and write smth new&interestin’

She said I’m attractive^^well.I don’t know-for others its easier 2 understand it.

anyway I luv everythin’ that’s connected wit Germany and UK^^

Ich will dich küssen!

I fell better cuz I know I ought 2 spend more time wit my expandin’^^ I need more time 4 it and that’s why I wanna say goodbye 2 all stupid communications and also silly ppl 2.

Sorry but I wanna b different as I felt it from inside myself durin’ all my childhood.

I luv u and it’s  great!

But don’t forget-this pharase was said me not about a person-but about aim.

Yup-I luv my aim.

I wanna crash that pie bcuz it fried toooo much and I’m not satisfied by this fact >_<

U know I actually wanted 2 make it in right order.I did everything following the instruction but I’m fuckin’ failed.

what the hell i’ve done

Suppose 2day’s day gonna b very busy cuz I awoke up late-almost at 3pm but I ought 2 do so many things in order 2 prepare to my parents’ arrivin’.

Suppose my skill 2 cook’ll enhance my parent’s belief in myself^^

anyway I wanna make a real pizza in home conditions. I mean I’m gonna fry it and do everything by myself-no prepared production from store.

I dinni why,why cookin’ helps me sometimes 2 have a good time,it can relax me and I forget ‘bout all problems and noises surround myself. Cookin’-like a real art where u can actually switch on all ur fantasy and take here ur soul. Just in this situation u can create smth delicios. Don’t forget-when u start doin’ smth without interest&pleasure-it won’t b at exellant level.

but also I understand-there’re not so many things which we wanna do wit great pleasure.Well,u just have 2 awake this feeling and make it active^^

So,now I really ahve 2 go-I wuold like 2 have an exellant results-bye

I know I ought 2 have  more patient and pollite features but

it makes me sad sometimes

that’s not so easy 2 understand speech witout translatin’. Furthermore I feel myself like a real fool. Just have 2 learn more&more.

Hurray-now I defenitely know what i wanna do wit my future job^^

I mean I feel what branch of design I must choose as a general profession.

Also-pls forget’bout lazyness 4ever and never let itself 2 cum back.yaa.

bye-hope 2 write 2morrow smth interesting and also I’m plannin’ 2 do smth in 3dmax.

2day I’ve been thinkin’ ‘bout interior design. May b someone’ll say me-it’s not easy but at the same moment I suppose that’s interestin’. When u switch on ur intuition,u begin 2 hold ur idea at right way-don’t u?

I understood that if u wanna enhance ur professional skills,firstly u must repeat smth created b4 u by famous ppl. I mean it’s not possible 2 invent smth urs,if u’ve never seen a previous one-4eg. Just great luggage of ideas can boost ur level in future. 

Also,this’ll able 2 help u 2 find affluent clients. The general value in interior design,as I think,is a huge fantasy mixin’ wit ergonomic needs. 

Now I really have 2 go-but later hope 2 return here and write my 2-nd part of thoughts about interior design^^

Have u ever thought ‘bout ur intuition?I always supposed that it can’t b serios sometimes.But..

We were plannin’ our photo project from the previous year. I wanted 2 do it in conceptual style,like unusual way of understandin’ present reality. But after my appointment with that model I suddenky understood-he doesn’t have enought enthusiasm. He’s too soft and he also doesn’t have a strong passion 2 it like I always have.

U know,just firstly,when I saw him,I felt this problem immeditealy. But I didn’t wanna trust 2 myself. May b I had a little hope.No.

If u have ur own opinion ‘bout smth-don’t hold it in ur mind-like Captive in prison.

Music:

Regina Spector-Begin 2 hope